Real Talk..Lets get Personal!

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Hi guys! Sorry I got to this later than I expected! If you saw my blog post earlier I stated that I was going to let you guys know why I have been posting more sporadically lately - so here it is!

I've been having a tough time lately and it's been very difficult to get myself to do much of anything let alone blogging.
Well...especially blogging if I'm being really honest.
I've considered posting about this for a while now, just to let you guys know what is up with me.
I wasn't sure if anybody would care or really be interested at all in my struggles with depression.

I mean you are all here just to see nails, right?

But depression is something that I have been dealing with for many, many years now.
 I'm not going to get into it too much, at least for now. 
But my depression does affect my life and blogging at times.
I have tried different medications in the past with little to no improvement but currently I'm not talking anything.
Mostly due to lack of insurance right now but that is a whole other discussion! lol.
I also have pretty severe general anxiety and social anxiety so those don't help either.
I believe people should talk more about depression and other struggles in life candidly.
I really hate that depression along with many other mental illnesses and disorders have such a stigma around them.

Sometimes I just get in a exceptionally​​ bad "funk" and the past month or two have been the worst one in a very long time.

I just genuinely wanted to say that I'm sorry that I have been posting less often, and I am very sorry if you feel the quality isn't always up to par in all my blog posts. I do try my best but some days it can be hard for me to pay the equal attention to detail as other days. I have felt incredibly guilty lately like I am letting you guys down in some way, and even more guilty that my reviewing TAT has been much slower.
I put a lot of stress on myself for blogging and I often worry about it starting to be less fun.
It is sometimes when I'm in these funks and I don't like to force myself so I try not to but then the guilt can rack back up.

So I just wanted to clear the air a little.
I hope that those who read this understand that sometimes I don't post often because I struggle sometimes and give me a little slack. I thought maybe sharing this would ease some guilt that I feel.

If you made it through this than well, you are awesome!​

And if anybody else had similar struggles and ever want to talk you can always shoot me an email.
I know it's not always a easy subject to be open about. There were years of my life that I didn't tell anyone.
But you will feel so much better if you do!